First, it need not be mutated, it has only to be dropped– not mutated. You don’t mutate a disease, you drop it. You don’t mutate something that is wrong inside you, you simply get rid of it. Mind needs no mutation. Just see the point that this is a kind of cancerous growth in you, then drop it. In fact, in understanding that this is a cancerous growth, you will drop it. The very seeing will become the dropping of it.

You still want to mutate it? You still want to keep it– a little more painted, polished, a change here and there, a little whitewash and renovation? Then you are not really fed-up with it. You still have some infatuation with it, you want to keep it. You want to keep it, maybe in a little reformed, modified way, but the continuity you want to keep. And that is the whole point, the very crux of the whole problem. You should become discontinuous with the mind, that is mutation, that is revolution– discontinuous...

When you become very intensely aware of all the nonsense and nuisance that the mind has done to you– then you don’t ask how to transform it, how to reform it, how to make it a little more civilised and tame, how to make it a little more sophisticated, how to make it so one can live with it conveniently, comfortably, how to rub its corners a little bit and make them smooth. Then it will be the same thing. Maybe the disease will be there in a subtle form, and the subtle form is more dangerous than the gross form, because the subtle goes deeper than the gross.

You say: 'How can my judgmental, self-opinionated, guilt-inducing, fearful mind be mutated?'

No need to go on having your mind. It is not of any worth. Drop it, and then you will have the universal mind functioning in you. Because of your mind the universal cannot function, you go on interfering. You don’t allow the cosmic mind to function in you. You are the barrier, the hindrance, the obstruction. Now the obstruction is not to be made better, the obstruction has to be removed utterly removed.

And you say: 'It is giving me the shits. I’m completely fed-up with it.'

Not completely. If you are completely fed-up with it, you will not even ask the question. Who is forcing you to keep this mind? You are not completely fed-up with it. There must be some subtle infatuation still lingering. You are still hoping against hope that maybe something better can come out of it. ’It is such a beautiful mind, maybe something is wrong that can be put right. Some nuts and bolts are loose, they can be tightened. Something is missing, it can be brought from the outside. Something is non-functioning, it can be cleaned, made to function.’ But this will be just a reformation. You will have a better cultured mind. That does not make any difference. The mind will be there, and the mind creates the barrier between you and God. Because your mind means the cosmic mind is not allowed to function unhindered. You are standing there, choosing, deciding, concluding– according to your notions, ideologies, ideas, scriptures, experiences.

God comes to you, but your mind colours the whole thing so much that you cannot know what is coming to you. Open the window, let there be no hindrance, no curtain. Look directly into existence without your mind coming in. Even if it happens for a single moment, you will have such a great insight. It can happen. It has happened to me, it has happened to Jesus, it has happened to Buddha, it can happen to you. Because you all carry the seed; the essential seed of it is in you. So don’t be in a hurry. If you are not fed-up totally with it, get a little more fed-up with it. But it needs a let-go.

A mountain climber was halfway up a steep precipice when suddenly he slipped and began plummeting towards the valley below. After falling several hundred feet he luckily was able to grab on to a small tree growing out of a crack in the sheer vertical face of the mountain. As he was clinging on for dear life, he looked up into the sky and said ’Lord, please save me.’ A booming voice answered back and said ’Let go and have faith!’ The man, still hanging on, thought for a moment and then looked up again and said ’Is there anyone else up there?’

That is the situation. I am telling you: Let go of it. In its very dropping is the benediction. But you are afraid of dropping it. You are so much identified with it: you think it is you! That is the problem. And when you say ’I am fed-up with it’, who is this ’I am’? It is again part of the same mind. And the mind is very cunning in playing games. It divides itself and goes on playing games. This one who says ’I am fed-up’ is but a part of the mind and this is the game of the mind: it divides and then goes on playing the game of hide-and-seek. The one that you are fed-up with and the one which is fed-up– both are the same. The object and subject are both the same.

See it! Look into it, and you will be able to see because it is so. l am just stating a fact. Seeing it, you will start laughing. If you listen to this mind which says ’I am fed-up with the mind’ you will again strengthen the mind from another side. They are complementary to each other. They are not enemies, they supplement each other. Just be choiceless. Don’t choose. Choice brings the mind in. Choice is mind. That’s why all the ancient scriptures and all the ancient Masters have been talking about only one thing: Be a witness. Just watch what is happening. Ask ’Who is fed-up with the mind?’ And you will see that it is the mind creating a new game, deceiving you again on a subtler and deeper level. And it can go on and on.

Just watch. Don’t decide. Don’t take sides. Go on watching. Watching is a little arduous, because the mind says ’Do something. Either be for this side or that, but do something. Don’t just go on sitting there silently and watching’– because mind becomes very much afraid when you simply watch.

My suggestion for you is that for three months you simply watch without deciding that you have to do anything about the mind. Go on watching. On each subtler level you go on watching. And in those three months some day you will have the first glimpse of no-mind. It may only be for a moment, but that will become the turning-point in your life. From that moment, more and more moments will be coming to you. And soon you will see that without doing anything about the mind, the mind has started receding backwards. It is going far away. It still makes a noise, but it is very distant: you remain unperturbed by it. One day, suddenly it is gone: you are left alone. And when you are left alone, you are in God. You have always been in God. Because of the interference of the mind, it was not possible for you to look into your own self.